Updated: 3 days ago
I was in wrist restraints once.
It’s a dark night of the soul type story, one I have hesitated to share for years because I’m a recovering people pleaser.
But I was in wrist restraints once.
It was 2013 and I was trying to fill a void with all the wrong things. And one of those things took me down.
I was confused for 3 days in a hospital bed, wondering if it was the end for me.
But it actually turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to me.
I remember laying in the hospital bed watching the clock on the wall and listening to its seemly eternal ticking.
I still to this day cannot stand that sound.
I remember wondering, is this it? Is this hell? What have I done? Am I redeemable?
But guess what, it wasn’t too late.
God showed up for me.
Through my grandfather who sat next to me, despite my confusion.
Through the rest of my family who sat there for hours, loving me through it.
He even showed up for me through the medical staff who helped me come back to reality by patiently walking me through what happened.
I’ll never forget the womans voice, bringing me back to reality. Asking me clarifying questions and helping me retrace my last steps over and over until I realized where I was and what had happened.
God redeemed me through that experience, And I’ve been awake ever since.
The experience even fueled my passion for nursing because of the sweet staff that had compassion on me.
I remember wondering if perhaps a hospital is Gods gift to give second chances to people like me.
Today it gives me compassion when I come across dazed and confused people in the hospital, b/c that experience taught me that I could potentially be the hands and feet God is using to give them their second chance.
My restraints were eventually released physically.
And Spiritually speaking, I have never felt more free.
If you’re reading this, He can do the same for you.
My God is a Way Maker, promise keeper, and shines light into the darkest situations.
He releases restraints and provides a Way to freedom.
Come to Him.
“The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance.” 2 Peter 3:9
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